Stiff Neck is back... The other day I felt the random pains in my head that travel. I pray that I don't get my headaches back. I have been feeling hot spots on my body...It comes and goes, but it feels like someone is holding a lighter to my skin and then it just goes away. I have felt it on the top of my feet, on my hands, arms and on my back. There is no rash or evidence that this is even happening. I still have extremely sore soles of my feet ONLY when I wake in the morning. It hurts to put my feet down on the ground. I dread getting out of bed in the morning. They are sore throughout the day however the pain comes and goes.. or maybe I am forgetting about it. I have been off of the doxycycline for about two weeks. I am so afraid that the lyme will still be there. And perhaps the 240 day treatment, pissed them off.
I want nothing more then to feel normal. I have to go in for surgery on the 26th for laparoscopic surgery. I am not interested in being put to sleep, but that is the way it has to be. I hope that this surgery will take away the morning sickness and then the only thing I will have to battle is the lyme.
This is a good article that I came across this morning. http://www.tiredoflyme.com/what-to-do-if-you-suspect-you-have-lyme-disease.html#.UIaEm9Wt21d
My husband recommended that I search for things that are treated with doxycycline. After reviewing the list, I am again sure that I have lyme disease and just want it to go away. This has taken about 5-6 years of my life away. This is insane and I am not going out like this. I have to get retested again for lyme and they are also going to test for RA rheumatoid arthritis. Which can be caused by untreated lyme disease. So does or is Chronic Lyme even real. I would say yes, I have taken the treatment that the doctor said should make me feel better and it did, but when I stop taking the doxycycline the symptoms start to resurface.
I feel as though I am stuck in this body and the real me can not come out until I correct all the shit that is wrong with me.
If anyone is reading this please become a follower so that I may have some inclining of not being alone through this nasty battle. My husband said that he is there and will always be there, but unless you suffer from chronic pain you can not really understand. He has been a really big help in raising our children. During the time when my body says enough, like every Thursday night. Right after hump day, that is about as much as I can humanly handle then I am go to bed at 8ish on Thursday, cause I am so tired of fighting.
This fight has made me very angry. I am not going out like this I will fight this and for everything that I hold dear to my heart. I maybe crazy but... But I am a crazy fighter. I will come out on top. Screw you lyme, screw you cysts, tumors and blood clots, oh yeah and autoimmune blood clotting disorders. I will win!
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